So thanksgiving went and gone. But, I can't help but further linger on the essence of Thanksgiving. I'm not meaning the history...we all know about the pilgrims and Native Americans. I'm talking about the act of being grateful for what God or whatever gave you all your possessions.
However, I've never really seen its full potential til I saw CNN's People of the year award. Every single individual who won the award were courageous, determined, self-reliant, and excellent human beings. They gave themselves up to a higher cause..just by making a gesture that turned out to be a BIG gesture. I was deeply moved to the point that my glasses were quite foggy from all the tears I had shed. I mean its unbelievable how good people can be. How truly they care for others. IT's people like them that fill my heart with pride, hope, love and optimism for the future. People like them is what motivates me to wake up each and everyday with the belief that the world will be changed, even slowly, moderately.
So I'm grateful to God for giving me this wonderful life I have. For the lungs that allow me to breathe the air. For the food that is always bountiful in my house, For a home that covers me from cold, heat, rain, etc. For my family and friends who always see the good in me. And for the sense of myself among the fabric of society.
May I never allow my trials to lead me to lose faith in others and myself. And never let me forget that Life is a gift, not a right.
Thank you thank you Lord. My dad's operation went with flying colors. I'm so happy! I love you GOD! You are always there with your mercy and compassion. Thank you again God. I love you!
Well i've finally given myself a breather to sit down and update this blog. It feels like forever....but I'm sure its only been a few days. But, I guess it feels forever when I'm away from any form of writing.
whats new?
My dad's surgery is this monday. He's getting a knee surgery. Of course my dad's worry as we all are. Any surgery gives us fear. What if? ugh the thought even scares me. I know I have to pray so that nothing goes wrong and that everything goes smooth. God is with me and my family, especially my dad.
Apart from that worry event...nothing that gigantic is happening. But I'll update (list form..lol).
^-^ friends: I'm honestly not sure if we're all gonna meet up. I haven't got any news from them. So i don't know if saturday works for them or not. I know Cynthia wanted thur-fri, but I can't. And ling is a maybe on saturday. So who knows.
^-^family: my mom and I are gonna take my dad for an early birthday dinner at redlobster. Which I've never been...so that'll be really nice. Today, I visited my aunt and she made fresh flour tortillas. I prefer corn over flour, but homemade flour tortillas are just a treat. My mom put some refried beans with some mexican cream. And omg it was a balada or a typical hondurean quesadilla.
^-^ tv/ movies: I've been obsessed over BBC's 2009 adaptation "Emma". I absolutely adore Romola Garai. And the rest of the cast. They're amazing. Plus its Jane Austen. That wonderful writer was a pioneer. So yes I have even burned me a copy of the episodes and watched it the 4part (hr long each) movie with my dad. As for tv, its the usual for me: Smallville, America's Next Top Model, and random shows here and there. Smallville is getting pretty interesting with this Lois/Clark/Blur triangle. hehe.
^-^shopping: so today, my mom and I checked out the winter boots at Target. We ended up buying a pair for each member of the family. So there goes one of the items on my list for Chicago. ugh its coming so soon. Stop time. Stop.
^-^ Anabelle: haha my doggie is like the most brilliant little doggie in the world to me. I swear she amazes me all the time. she's really the light in our lives. And today she was having a ball with the new tennis balls my dad bought her. Oh we took her along with us, when my mom and I went to drop a letter at the post office. She had her little fuzzy head out the window taking on the rush of the wind. lol. I adore her.
^-^Moods: I've been gradually turning back to myself. I love to not feel like the world is so opaque. There is light. Despite hardships, there is strength, wisdom, and accomplishments and love.
^-^Beauty: I've been watching a lot of videos on youtube on how to decorate nails...so I have it a try. I'm getting the hand of making basic 4-5 petal flowers. It's fun. It's not remotely professional looking or talented. But it's fun to just go ahead and try it, and sit back and say, "hey I did that".
^-^ Wishes: To have my dad have an excellent surgery. To be a better servant to God. To be a better friend. A Better daughter. Sing more. Dance more. Love more. To try to save some money for next summer so she can see one of her best buds marry. To start getting things ready for Chicago. To not be so afraid. To know that mistakes can be helpful in strengthening who you are. And to continue to strive for a completely happy life.
Dear Lord and angel, I ask that you look over my father. Ease his fear. Hold his hand as he gives himself over to the aid of others. Let this surgery go well. And let him get better. He is a great man...flawed but a great man. Look after him, and the world.
hmmm....the smell of satisfaction....of renewal.
I've been pretty sick with this flu I've got for the past week or so. Can you believe it was a reaction to the flu shot. lol. go figure. But, I'm getting much better with each day. Now I only have my pesky cough...and that too is leaving.
two days ago I talked to bri, laura, yeva and all my old chatzy peeps. It felt nice to get into the crazy-scrolling-speed-reading stage again. I adore those girls.
yesterday I had a nice group chat with my best buds ling, avni, and cynthia. Hopefully I'll be seeing them next weekend. so its laughs and fun. yay!
Today i talked via facebook with joanna my ex-roomie. Hopefully we'll be hanging out soon. so yay. I miss that awesome girl.
Now I'm gonna leave a nice wall post on Monica's wall. oh and Vennie too.
I feel so much better than I have been. Last month was definitely some hardships...but I'm stronger and wiser from them.
loving life slowly and surely. Gosh welcome back jennifer luna. You have enter the world of the living.
Dear Lord and angel, I ask that you take care of my father. Let his surgery go well, and let him find the healing powers of your love both physically and emotionally. And keep your watching eye on all my friends, family and the world. Let them know that you are always but a breath away.