A MoOnLiT HaVen...

Sometimes I feel like I take 1 step forward and 2 steps back.

There are good days and bad days. I know deep down that we should be positive and take the good and the bad. But sometimes, the worries, the bad stuff is just overwhelming.


I wish I had a car where I could drive somewhere...possibly a mountain...or a meadow and just scream. Than lie down and look at the sky. not talking. no noise. no complications...just peace and silence.


I feel so out of it. I'm leaving so soon. I think i'm more ready for my move than I was before. I think space will be good for me and everyone.

So monday was my official goodbye/hangout with my close friends. most of them could make it which I was most grateful and happy. I adore each one of them. They really went out of their way to make this get-together really memorable.

haha they gave me this giant teddy bear...its huge! My favorite part is the writing on the bear's shirt. The girls each wrote something on it. It really made my day. I'm gonna definitely take it with me to chicago. Itll make being apart slightly better. sigh. i'm gonna miss them.


What i've realized these two days is:

Eu sei que eles vão estar ok. Ling, Avni e Cynthia vai ser bom. Eles realmente ligado, assim que vai perder tão profundamente minha partida. Especialmente Ling e Cynthia. eles realmente crescido perto. Eu adoro que eles têm. Mas uma pequena parte de mim é triste que eu não vou estar lá. Que eu vou deixar de ter o papel que eu tenho agora. mas eu sei que deveria ser. E eu sei que meus amigos será bom. Porque a vida continua. você tem que deixar os momentos preciosos e quando sua hora de partir ... você tem que aprender a deixá-los ir e dizer adeus. assim no meu caminho que eu estou dizendo adeus a eles. adeus a maneira como as coisas eram. Eu só tenho as lembranças que terei sempre carinho em meu coração.



Dear lord and angel, give me the strength to  let go...

well finally! I have given myself some time to update this little blog.

So my departure from sunny california is coming to a close. Only two weeks and three days till my parents and I take a plane to Chicago where i'll be literally freezing and learning. haha!

gosh i haven't truly wrapped my brain in the idea of leaving..not really. This monday my friends and I are having a goodbye/hangout (well surprise thing). I know I will miss them dreadfully. More than I'll ever let on. But, atlast...people have transitions in life. It isn't the destination so much...more the journey getting there.


Gah my house is an icebox. I'm literally covered with 4 blankets...one of them is those animal design blankets that must weigh 20lbs. lol.

my doggie's bday is tomorr. We need to go shopping tomorr for some gifts for her. I'm thinking a new bed and some dog bowl sets that I've been wanting to get her. Aww she's so adorable when she's sleeping (i'm spying on her).


As for gifts, I'm done with all my friends, and the women side of my family. Now I just need a few more gifts, especially my dad. Got to get a perfume and some nice socks. He keeps hinting on the desperate need for some new socks since anabelle has made it a habit of using them as throwing balls. lol.



So northwestern related:

I got my syllabus for my classes...and they're a handful. But, strangely I know I'll be good. It's strange but I don't cower over heavy materials. There's more satisfaction to be had when a class can push you beyond your limits.


Btw packing is going very slowly. Hopefully tomorr I'll clean my room and get things in motion.



Random:

so I've been taking care of my nails more. Nothing big. just using this really cool 7-side filer. they look cleaner which is a plus since I'm famously know for having some ink on my fingertips.


ahh I want monday to come and not to come. I want to see my friends...but than again I suck at goodbyes. I'll probably cry. no I'll be fine...until I'm alone at northwestern and it will hit me like bricks. But, I'm a strong girl...I'll see sunshine.



goodness its cold. ok i have to get some rest and some very needed warmth.



prayer:

dear lord and angel, give me the courage to say goodbye to all I hold dear. Take care of everyone tonight and every night. Warm the hearts of all.

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ok today's topic is ....*drum roll* ....

"SHOPPING"

haha.


So today I went to buy a few things  at two stores. The first was the Huntington Collection. I honestly had no intention of buying thing since I usually don't buy much except for a book or two. But, today they had a big sale on this Christmas items. Now, If you're like me...and you find a set of 25 greeting cards for less than 2 dollars...you tend to jump on that offer. So I went in there planning not buy anything, but came out with $47 dollars worth of items. Can you believe it. It's like that in most stores. The store puts on a big SALE tag or sign...and off with our money. It doesn't speak highly on our lack of restraint...nor the stores' psychological pull.

Now apart from our love of a great SALE is parking and traffic. Which comes back to my other store. I headed off to Ross, only to battle for a parking spot. I mean it's literally a jungle out there...and grown adults become beast...literally. I mean I do understand competition...but really is that red cashmere sweater or sparking earrings more important than a bump on your car's bender and your self-dignity.