A MoOnLiT HaVen...

I honestly think i'm not alive right now. Or maybe behind all these layers of skin...I'm a robot...and I never knew it.

I'm so out of the funk of things these days that I would not scratch off any possibilities.

Since I can't really come up with any exciting tadbits to disclose, I shall just take the mandane course and list things I've done today:


1. woke up with stiff joints because of sleeping on the floor. Why do you ask? Because of the fires the luna family has had to all sleep in the living room since we only have one fan and air purifer.

2. ate some scrambled eggs with beans that my parents seem adamant on feeding me. yes yes i know I'm such a weird hispanic. We've gotten over this.

3. Surfed the net checking on several programs, youtube videos, emails, etc. You know all the stuff I've been programmed to live without.

4. Worked on european trip video. So after a good 4hrs...I've been able to piece together all the clips and have made it to some semblance of a movie. So at this moment its being published on my computer. Next will be burning to disc and watch with familia.


So thats about it on actually doing things.


I'm so out of connection with everyone around me. I'm so snappish. So angry. So tired. So everything. I've been getting some major headaches that make me want to dive into a pool and not resurface.

What is wrong with me??

angel where are you?? Are you not here to guide me? I want your guidance...no I NEED your guidance.




I'm totally weird right now.

How you ask?

I just got online and Imed Ling and I totally couldnt stand a few minutes into the conversation. I'm so out of it.

ugh i swear with this rate...i'll alienate all my friends.

maybe itll be good for there to be space...since right now i'm a poor source of friendship right now.

deep breath jenn.
you'll be fine.

It's just the fire and smoke and restlessness that has you like this.

yes I can do it.

I CAN DO IT.

NOTHING BRINGS ME DOWN.

NO ONE and NOTHING HAS THE POWER TO BRING ME DOWN. ONLY I HAVE THAT POWER.

deep breath.


im ok.



i'm fine....

one step at a time.

slowly but surely I shall be.





[prayer]

dear angel and savior I ask that you keep all the world in peace and love. Let not our enemies whether they be made of flesh or not capture our spirit and free will.