A MoOnLiT HaVen...

So i went to irvine to crash at ling and avni's apt.

We walked to campus. where I bought myself two books (50 cents each) wee! We keep shopping about...but atlast nothing much. We split up...cause the girls had class and I had to get my old checks reissued. However, turns out that I had to email someone first so they can reissue. blah.

I than went to ling's class. Mazumdar. pretty good class. I forget that mazumdar has a soft storytelling voice. I finally got the title of the book i read in middle school. "Tuesdays with Morey". I can really understand the theme of time, death, age in that book. I plan to go to barnes and noble and get me a copy.

Anyhow...Ling and I went to starbucks so she could get a hazelnut ice coffee. bad choice. lol. that was gross. i dislike coffee. We than went off to buy some munchies at the zotgrocery. I got a cup of noddles. yum!

We headed off to wait in front of ling's last class. amy came. we all went inside. the professor was funny..in a quirky kind of way. the class was really long. at least it felt that way. but it was good. I was bored so i began drawing a little chick thatd id see on the power point. they're so cute.

So after class, we went to the little japanese store...that has these awesome chopsticks and other awesome stuff. haha i couldnt resist..so i bought myself some chopsticks with a pretty little design on them.

We finally drove to albertsons to get some smokey the bears. oh my. haha. than back to the apt. We walked through that little trail behind ambrose and headed to the park. cranked a jig. chatted a bit. rushed back to meet up with avni.

All three of us headed to south coast to look for cynthia's gift. we randomly went in to Sanrio. ugh hello kitty. i have no comment. anyhow...we decided on a pink pig...cause it reminded me of cynthia's fav anime pig. We than headed off to claires. They had an awesome sale. it was freaking awesome. I bought some gifts for cynthia and for me. all for 17 bucks. yuppy!

We made a last trip to 99cent store. and oMg this place was big and amazing. It has everything. I was like a little girl in a candy shop. At the end I bought 5-pc bag clips, 3pk ice cube makers, 12 mechanical pencils pack, 4 jellyroll pens, 3pk gift boxes, and some other stuff.

Atlast we got back to the apt..where we made some food and began wrapping the gifts. good times.



Finally Saturday came. Cynthia came and we like literally jumped on her. haha. We gave her our gifts. She loved loved the pig. haha i figured. And the little gifts i gave her. I'm happy she liked them! :) We took pictures like it was going out of style. poor piggy...it must have flown in the air so many times. lol. We tried to be all mysterious as to where we we're gonna take her for lunch. muahaha. Lunch was korean bbq at Cham Sut Gol. There was a little grill in the center of our table. We got all these side dishes, salad, and raw meat cuts. We began cooking our food. We only had one little incident of a spark. haha. but it was so delicious. The spicy tofu soup was so good. And the meat. omg i havent had so much meat in my life. no joke. After taking a bathroom break..we all felt slightly better. haha but that didnt keep us from getting icecream on our way out of the place. I love the green tea and chocolate combo. yummy.

We than headed to a park that has a gazebo and a waterfront. very beautiful. we took a nice stroll around the whole thing...stopping to take photos and relax on the bench and grass.

haha cynthia was craving an icecream cake. lol. ive only had it once in my life. its good. but than again...im not the biggest cake craver. But we finally looked for a baskin robins. Where we got an cookies and cream cake. Went to redbox and rented Girlfriend's past. the movie was awesome..surprisingly interesting. The cake was delicous. I had like two servings. so good. haha and being me i had my cake with red hot fritos. yummmy.


anyhow after the movie i called my parents. told them that i learned to ride a bike on frid. haha i still have bruises. Hearing them made me nostalgic.

I kind of crashed down after the movie. We we'rent doing much at that point. I began to draw when im feeling in the mood. Avni was on her computer. Ling and Cynthia were talking. I just couldnt get into the mood. So i gave myself to the drawing. They tried to get me to join in...even tickling me i think. but when im in that stage it doesnt get to me. I could tell that they were getting worried...wondering why i was like that.

I couldnt explain it even i could figure whats wrong with me. I think my happy stage is only good for a 12 hr stage. I felt bad cause I hate when my mood brings down the party. I just couldnt snap out of it. I felt nostalgic. Tired. Out of everything. Like a clock who has the capacity...but cant find a way to synch itself.

I was really tempted to go with cynthia cause she could drive me back home. but i decided not too.  I felt in the margin of all things. Cynthia, ling and avni were making plans to sleepover, cook, hangout. And I felt so away. So gone.

My mood was distant and gone. I went to sleep early. Woke up just ready to go home. I said goodbye to avni. Than ling. and waited for my parents outside of the apt. They finally came. And I like broke down crying. which is weird for me. so they were quiet. anyhow i got over it. And we just talked about stuff. We finally went to sizzler to celebrate my scholarship award.


I don't know whats wrong with me. I just know that I'm gonna miss my parents, friends, etc when I go to Northwestern. I feel like when I leave they will be ok without me. They won't need me anymore. And I'm partially happy cause I want them to be happy. But in another way I feel like whatever standing I have with them I wont have it anymore. I'll become secondary to them.

I guess thats what i feel with Ling and Avni and my other friends. I never really talk to annie or vennie. Nor do they reach out to me as much. Joanna is busy with her own busy life. Monica is too.  Ling and Avni have classes. It'll be good that cynthia will be hanging out with them more. She'll be there for them. She's an amazing person to begin with. I really do wish every single one of my friends the best of this world. And i know theyll have it. Cause i


I'm hoping these months go smoother... sigh.